Just published for early viewing
"True confessions: why I left a traditional liberal arts college for the sins of the Big City", Qualitative Research Journal, Vol. 17,1.
A story, a reminiscence, and a filmscript
By means of several auto-ethnographic stories (including a
scene from a working script for a proposed film), the author interrogates
numerous ideas and misconceptions about gay youth, both past and present. A
“bargain of silence” sometimes following gay sexual encounters in youth is
described. The author recounts a sexual experience with a male college student
in his past. This dissonance catapulted the author to move from his small
liberal arts college to the city and begin his education again at an Art
College.
Jones then describes his personal attraction to a sixteen-year-old boy who lived near his lodgings during
one summer’s break from Art College.
This time, the relationship remained purely platonic, but that didn’t
seem to matter where the boy’s parents were concerned. The author’s social position and pretense coupled with his romantic outlook convinced him that anything
was possible, even this platonic love. The painful lesson learned that summer
was that this was not the case, and never would be. The boy’s parents
threatened Jones, and he never saw the youth again.
The Author continues by discussing his award winning
research-based film, RUFUS STONE, and the reactions and conversations following
screenings, particularly with youth. This present generation seems to
Jones to be a sexually ambivalent one, more comfortable with multiple choices
or no choice at all. Nonetheless,
these young people do identify with the complexity of feelings and insecurities
presented by youth within the film.
In a recent
report on sexuality of American high school students by the Center
for Disease Control (CDC), researchers found an ambivalence and ‘dissonance’
amongst youth regarding sexuality and choice. Jones acknowledges that there
remains a contemporary problem of genuine acceptance by society, and that there
still is work to be done. He also admits that present-day attitudes by youth
regarding sexuality are one that he had previously assumed to be historical
ones.
Next, a scene from a working script for a proposed film, Copacetica, set in the “swinging sixties”, is presented. The scene outlines a
sexual encounter between the lead character, who remains confounded by his
sexuality, and his girl friend. In the scene they have sex, after which they
discuss sex itself and their relationship.
Being straight or being gay
can be viewed within the wider culture’s need to set up a sexual binary and
force sexual “choice” decision-making for the benefit of the majority culture.
Through the device of the fleeting moment, this essay hopes to interrogate the
certainties and uncertainties of the “norms” of modernity by portraying
sexuality in youth.
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